Living in the middle of answered prayers.

Swaziland has truly been incredible.
In this season, the Lord has been revealing His love to me in such real and tangible ways. He has been filling my heart with a deeper, richer gratitude than I’ve ever known. Every single day, I’m reminded that I’m living right in the middle of answered prayers surrounded by the best earthly family, the most amazing World Race family, and above all, Him.
“Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; His love endures forever.” — Psalm 107:1

October 20th was one of the hardest days I’ve had here. It was filled with tears, solitude, longing and yet such unexpected love from the people around me. All I wanted was a hug from my mom, but being across the world, that wasn’t possible.
And still, the Lord met me right there.
He reminded me that He was weeping with me, that His heart breaks when mine does. In the middle of my pain, He wrapped me in a peace and safety only He can give.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” — Psalm 34:18
“My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” — Exodus 33:14
In the quiet of that moment, He whispered something simple yet powerful:
He is my home.
Wherever He is, I am home and He never leaves.
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in You.” — Isaiah 26:3

A Heart Overflowing With Gratitude
This whole season has given me a brand new gratitude for the people and opportunities He’s placed around me. I’m thankful for the privilege of being the hands and feet of Jesus not just to the kids, but to every single heart I encounter in Swaziland.
I’m thankful for a Father who draws close, who pursues, who never asks me to perform or earn His love because I already have it. I’m thankful for fresh air, clothes on my back, shoes on my feet, and breath in my lungs. He has been so faithful.
“Every good and perfect gift is from above.” — James 1:17
I’ve fallen in love with the heart of this community. The CarePoint sits at the front of the village, and it’s such a sweet full-circle moment knowing my leader Abby was part of the first team ever to serve in Mahlabaneni—and now the team she leads gets to be here too. The legacy of love God is writing here is beautiful.

The Lord keeps giving me a spirit of deep gratitude not just for the big things, but for the little details. He truly is a God of details. Nothing in our days is accidental.

This season came with so much simplicity and so much joy, joy in the unexpected and the little things. Joy in holding a tiny hand. Joy in flashing a shy child a smile. Joy in stumbling through SiSwati, playing soccer in the dust, and giving out more hugs than I can count. Every small, ordinary moment in Nsoko carried a joy that felt sacred. Each moment reflected the heart of the Father so clearly.
“This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.” — Psalm 118:24
I came on this mission trip hoping to bring light and joy to every child I met and by God’s grace, that happened. But what I didn’t expect was how deeply I would be changed. I didn’t leave empty; I left overflowing. Overflowing with gratitude, with joy, with love. Those sweet kids poured into me just as much as I poured into them.
The Father used their laughter, their bravery, their tenderness, and their embrace to remind me that joy is not something we create it’s something He gives.

“The joy of the Lord is your strength.” — Nehemiah 8:10

This season reminded me that God often hides the greatest joy in the simplest moments. Keep your eyes open, keep your heart soft, and you’ll find Him everywhere.


Learning to Be Present
Throughout this time, I’ve made it a priority to be as present as I can. Being present allows me not only to see the hearts around me, but to actually witness what the Lord is doing inside my own. He’s been inviting me to seek Him in the small, ordinary moments the ones we often overlook.
One morning during quiet time, I sat on the porch at the base and asked the Lord to show me things I was thankful for. I listed a few, but I wanted specifics. Then He gently said, “Open your eyes.”
When I did, I saw His creation in a way I never had before the sunrise stretching over the mountains, the birds singing, the colors of the sky. I felt Him showing me that if He is this intentional with the mountains He formed and the sky He paints every morning, how much more intentional is He with me? How much purpose has He woven into my life?
“You formed my inward parts; You knit me together in my mother’s womb.” — Psalm 139:13

Hearing His Voice in New Ways
While in Nsoko, I struggled with discerning the Father’s voice. But through a book my teammate Gili is reading, I learned something so freeing: the Lord works with your imagination. I used to think imagination was just my flesh something competing with His voice. But since He created my imagination, of course He can speak through it. And because I have the mind of Christ, He can use it powerfully.

During the 40 days in Nsoko, God spoke to me in so many different ways, but one of the most special was through the hearts and hands of His children. Jesus told us to love God and love others and loving others is one of the clearest ways we love Him.

The lord has also been showing me so much of his beauty in solitude and silence. The beauty and growth that can happen with slowing down and sitting at the feet of the father. He will reveal more to you than you will ever know if you let him.

“Let us not love with words or speech but with actions and in truth.” — 1 John 3:18

Nsoko was such a blessing. I loved doing kids ministry all day. Sometimes the way you pour into people through your smile, your laughter, your presence impacts them more deeply than you realize. So don’t ever stop loving big. You have no idea how far that love reaches.

The Bittersweet Goodbye
Our last day of ministry was incredibly hard. Leaving these people and this place that I’ve grown to love so deeply broke my heart. Watching those we loved cry because they might never see us again… it made me cry too. Goodbyes like that don’t come lightly.
But I trust that the Lord waters the seeds we planted. Nothing you give in love is ever wasted.
“Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy.” — Psalm 126:5
The next morning, I woke up extra early to spend time with Him. Instead of my usual spot, I felt drawn to sit on the giant cement block. And if you know me, you know I love people big because that’s how our Father loves.
As I sat with Him, I couldn’t even get into the Word. I just cried grieving the goodbye, grieving the leaving. And He showed me so gently, so clearly, that He was holding me. He reminded me, “You’re weeping over these people because you loved them the way I asked you to with your whole heart. If you love them this deeply, imagine how much I love you and how much I love them.”
“The Lord your God is with you He will quiet you with His love; He will rejoice over you with singing.” — Zephaniah 3:17
It was one of the most beautiful encounters I’ve ever had.

Through all of this, the Lord has emphasized that life is all about relationships about loving people like Jesus would. Love is a universal language. It speaks louder than words ever can. And every act of love reflects His heart.
“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.”
— 1 Peter 4:8
This season has marked me. It has softened me. It has filled me with gratitude. And it has reminded me that the way we love people fully, intentionally, wholeheartedly is one of the clearest ways we show the world Jesus.

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